26A Celebrating failure

This past semester I failed a few times with my focus and time management. I often times find myself telling others that I love to learn but I’m not built for school. I love to learn on my own and work on my own schedule. Sometimes I work ahead and other times I procrastinate. A few times this semester I would start an assignment and forget that I didn’t finish it. Most notably for myself was just before Thanksgiving. I was excited for break so I lit up a cigar on my back porch with the intent of taking a quiz and celebrating the near end of the semester. My computer couldn’t connect to the internet while I was outside. After finishing my cigar and turning my attention to cooking dinner I never got back to my quiz.

I learned again what I have learned many times, and that is that my mind races too much for me to remember everything. The crazy part is I can do many things at one time but not if schoolwork is one.

Failure is very hard at times and depending on the situation can be very embarrassing. I, like everyone else has failed many times in my life on both small things like a quiz and big things like being cut from my college baseball team. What I have learned is that small or big they are the same. When it is all done and you have fail you must make a decision to keep grinding to improve your situation or give up. When making this decision the big picture is most important. I had to make the choice to give up on my baseball playing career because I already beat the odds at my size for even making it to a college team. I had to look at the big picture and I decided to find success elsewhere in my life. I have learned that often times you learn more from failure than you do success. With my personality I only take calculated risks in my life.